New Perspective

Some people are able to make choices and never look back or question whether the choices made were the best choices.  Unfortunately, I am not one of those people.  Although I carefully consider options when making decisions regarding both significant and insignificant matters with the hope of making the "right" choice, I still catch myself thinking about the other options after the choice has been made.  (Of course, I should emphasize that this is not the case for every decision I make.)  I have noticed, however, that I do not spend as much time questioning significant choices from the past now that I am Henley's mother.  It occurred to me sometime after giving birth to Henley that every (significant) choice I made prior to becoming pregnant made it possible for Henley to be my daughter.  Had I selected other options when making important decisions, it's highly likely that I would have either become pregnant at some other moment in my life or I would not have become pregnant at all.  If I had become pregnant at some other moment, I would have a child but that child would almost certainly not be Henley.  I find that really amazing, but it's true.  Now that Henley is a part of my life, I cannot imagine it without her.  As a result, I'm much more comfortable looking back on decisions made years ago without needing to ask "What if?".